Everybody's so punk on the internet
互联网上 每个人都如此叛逆不羁
Everyone's unbothered till they're not
每个人本装作毫不在意直到无法忍受
Every joke's just trolling and memes
每句玩笑都在引战嘲讽
Sad as it seems, apathy is hot
这种冷漠看似可悲却已成为流行
Everybody's cutthroat in the comments
每个人都在评论区针锋相对
Every single hot take is cold as ice
观点犀利冷酷无情
When you found me, I said I was busy
你找到我的时候 我借口在忙
That was a lie
但其实不是真的
I have been afflicted by a terminal uniqueness
总觉得自己过于独特这种致命的想法让我饱受折磨
I've been dying just from trying to seem cool
一直在强装镇定这快将我的心力耗尽
But I'm not a bad bitch
我不是什么心狠手辣的人
And this isn't savage
也不会去恶意抨击谁
But I'm never gonna let you down
但我绝不会让你失望的
I'm never gonna leave you out
我绝不会排挤你
So many traitors
到处都有人背叛
Smooth operators
用花言巧语耍诈
But I'm never gonna break that vow
但我绝不会背信弃义
I'm never gonna leave you now, now, now
从现在起我绝不会离开你
You know, the last time I laughed this hard was
你知道我上一次笑得这么开心是什么时候吗
On the trampoline in somebody's backyard
那时我在别人家后院的蹦床上尽情玩耍
I must've been about eight or nine
应该是我**岁左右的样子
That was the night
就在那天晚上
I fell off and broke my arm
我摔断了胳膊
Pretty soon, I learned cautious discretion
没过多久我就变得小心谨慎
When your first crush crushes something kind
当你的初恋摧毁了你内心的纯真美好
When I said I don't believe in marriage
我曾说不相信婚姻
That was a lie
但那也只是句谎言
Every eldest daughter
每一位长女
Was the first lamb to the slaughter
不过是献祭给屠宰场的第一头羔羊
So we all dressed up as wolves and we looked fire
我们只好将自己伪装成外表凶狠的恶狼
But I'm not a bad bitch
我不是什么心狠手辣的人
And this isn't savage
也不会去恶意抨击谁
But I'm never gonna let you down
但我绝不会让你失望的
I'm never gonna leave you out
我绝不会排挤你
So many traitors
到处都有人背叛
Smooth operators
用花言巧语耍诈
But I'm never gonna break that vow
但我绝不会背信弃义
I'm never gonna leave you now, now, now
从现在起我绝不会离开你
We lie back
我们躺下来
A beautiful, beautiful time lapse
见证时光流逝的美妙
Ferris wheels, kisses, and lilacs
摩天轮亲吻紫丁香
And things I said were dumb
还有我曾说过的傻话
'Cause I thought that I'd never find that beautiful, beautiful life that
因为我以为我再也找不到那
Shimmers that innocent light back
闪烁着纯真光芒的美好生活
Like when we were young
就像我们年少时那样
Every youngest child felt
每个年幼的孩子都认为
They were raised up in the wild
自己是在荒野中长大的
But now you're home
但现在你已经回家了
'Cause I'm not a bad bitch
毕竟我不是什么心狠手辣的人
And this isn't savage
也不会去恶意抨击谁
And I'm never gonna let you down
我绝不会让你失望的
I'm never gonna leave you out
我绝不会排挤你
So many traitors
到处都有人背叛
Smooth operators
用花言巧语耍诈
But I'm never gonna break that vow (Never gonna break that vow)
但我绝不会背信弃义
I'm never gonna leave you now, now, now
从现在起我绝不会离开你
Never gonna break that vow
绝不会背信弃义
Never gonna leave you now, now
从现在起绝不会离开你
I'm never gonna leave you now
从现在起我绝不会离开你
长女往往是第一个被推上战场的人。从小就被期待成熟,学会独立坚强。即便还是孩子,也要逼自己提前披上情感的铠甲,成为更懂事、更省心的那个身为嫡长女,我从来不敢坐下和母亲喝一杯因为害怕看见母亲深邃的眼,母亲的眼是女人这辈子最恐惧看到的东西,而母亲的赞扬,是女人这辈子最想听见的称赞。都说“长姐如母”,其实我们每个人都是自己的“长姐”,就像20岁的自己会告诉以前的自己,爱情不过是一场必须要经历的劫难。30岁的自己会告诉20岁的自己,人生匆匆,珍惜当下。你会怀念以前,也无比想要保护曾经那个天真自由的自己,哪怕被抛弃中伤。能治愈的只有你自己,不会抛弃你的也只有自己。
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第5章 Eldest Daughter